Hello world

I seem to have found myself on blogger again and though the need to write has never left me, I just haven't been bothered enough to post anything here in a while. But if any of you are still reading, here it is: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A game of hide and seek, that's all this seems to be In and out of the blue, she comes and goes wearing different masks on different days, her twisted lies and countless tales no-one keeps count, yet they're all amazed how each day she's masked behind a brand new veil her features soft like a porcelain doll and venom red lips that refuse to speak the truth An epitome of perfection, she stands tall her sorrows hidden in silence within her walls until the day she breaks free lets her tears come flowing down her cheeks She smiles & at last she says, "it's hard to pretend when your heart's already dead".

Diamonds are a girl's best friend

Dedicated to Sam, thank you for putting up with everything I do :*

Day after day, Maha tossed and turned in bed wondering when she would be able to sleep in peace again. A tear crept down her cheek and she fought the urge to break down, just like she did everyday until she eventually gave in and cried herself to sleep.

The images were vivid in her mind, replaying itself like a movie. She had sleepless visions of a young man, not just any young man, but the one she had fallen head over heels in love with. They always started the same way, with Fahad sitting on a bench in the park, wearing a lazy grin that never failed to make Maha's heart skip a beat.

He waved at her as she made her way towards him and pulled out a rose from behind his back and handed it to her. Maha burst into a fit of giggles at his gesture and smiled shyly before plucking the rose out of his arms and placing a soft kiss on his cheek to show her appreciation.

Fahad brushed his fingers across her cheek and exclaimed, 'I love everything about that smile of yours'. With that Maha turned around and displayed one of her goofiest grins which caused Fahad to chuckle and pull her into his arms.

The recollection of these thoughts forced a smile onto her face that even she couldn't fight in her sleep.

The pictures that followed were unclear, and the next few months replayed itself to Maha as a blur before it came to a standstill once more. She could feel her heart pounding and felt a knot tighten in her stomach, a feeling she'd grown accustomed to over the time.

Fahad was standing in Maha's apartment and they were both yelling things at each other with Maha's voice growing fainter with every remark. "Things aren't like they used to be, you always seem so detached and you act like you're doing me a favor by spending time with me"

He looked at her with cold eyes before remarking, "I am doing you a favor, aren't I? Look at yourself, you don't have any friends, any place to be, or any place you belong". A tear slid down Maha's face as she exclaimed " you know I threw all of that away for you", he sneered and said "look at where that got you", and began walking towards to door and before he left he went "and you're right, things aren't like before, and they'll never be, you were a mistake I don't intend to make again" and with that he slammed the door shut and walked out.

Maha stared at the door in disbelief and felt herself break down completely with tears streaming down her face. She had given up everything to be with him, everything, lost her friends, rebelled against her parents and lost her respect as a whole, but she didn't care what they thought as long as she could be with him. She sobbed even harder as she remembered all the things he said to her about them being together.

Every day she awoke from her sleep on a tear stained pillow and not an ounce of energy in her body. Every day, she replayed the account of her dream in her mind and every day, she felt worse and worse for herself.

But today her dream didn't end when Fahad walked out the door and instead Maha picked herself up off the floor and pieced together the fragments of her heart Fahad found a way to shatter and with that, for the first time in months, Maha drifted off to a peaceful sleep.

The next morning Maha awoke, like always to a drenched pillow and a broken heart, but as the first rays of sunshine began entering her room, she felt a lot more light hearted.

She pulled out her journal and flipped through tear stained pages and ripped out notes, before reaching a new page where she wrote, in 4 simple words, all that was needed to help her move on, "Today will be different".
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Hey loves,

I know it's been an awfully long time, but what can I say, 2010 was not the most pleasant and was definitely a rough and hectic one. I intend to be doing a lot more with my time this year and hopefully I'll be able to stick to my resolutions :p

Here's to welcoming 2011 with arms wide open & I hope that not just me, but every single one of my readers gets the year they've been waiting for.

Expect to see a lot more of me from now on,

I've also started off my own tumblr which I may or may not post a link to due to privacy reasons but I will let you know about that in the next post

p.s for those of you who haven't watched Burlesque already, I highly reccomend it. Everything from it being Moulin-Rouge inspired down to the gorgeous shoes had me enticed! Definitely a chick movie for the years to come

Until next time,

xoxo

I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you

*This post is for Sall, who gave me the motivation to start writing again :*

She smiled to herself as she watched him nervously fidget in his seat, staring at her every now and then before looking away, afraid of getting caught.

She raised her head and gazed intently into his eyes wondering how the roles had changed so drastically, remembering the days where she used to be the target of his jokes and when they couldn’t even sit in the same room without starting some kind of argument with each other.

She began to open her mouth to say something but he cut her off by going. “You look beautiful today”, which caused her to begin blushing furiously before She daintily muttered a thank you and went into another deep trance of hers.
He had always been the only one who could make her blush, whether it was bright red from embarrassment or from a compliment, leaving her feeling like a little girl all over again.

A sly grin formed on his face as he studied her, lost in her own thoughts and oblivious to her surroundings. He placed his arm around her and exclaimed “Be mine”, and she looked up, placed her head on his shoulders and sighed “Always was”

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Hello everyone,

A very very late Ramadan Kareem to you all and I understand I have spent an awfully long time away from blogsphere and I have missed it thoroughly, I just haven't had both the time or the inspiration to write.

I've decided to take a shot at writing again, and I haven't written in a while so it's still a little rusty but I intend on posting more often, provided I feel inspired.

I'd also like to ask you guys to help me out with this by giving me ideas on what to write about, any suggestions will be much appreciated! :)

Apart from that, what have you all been upto? This summer has definitely been one for the books. We headed to the Far East, where everything from shopping on the streets of Mumbai to soaking up the sun in Hong Kong was magical. I absolutely loved the rich culture and the energy.

So where all did you lovelies spend this summer?

Until next time,

xoxo

P.s: don't forget to leave me suggestions!

Illuminati want my mind, my soul and my body.

Hey loves,

The past few weeks have been crazy, literally. I've stumbled upon things that most of you might already know, but it had me so captivated and opened my eyes up to a whole new world that I just wasn't able to see before.

They call themselves the Illuminati, it didn't make sense to me at first about what they wanted or why they even did the things they did but as I looked deeper and deeper into the topic, everything started to make sense and all those coincidences didn't look like coincidences anymore.

Yes, I'm aware that I sound like a crazed lunatic right now but I know I can show you a lot better than I can explain:




I also recommend looking into FarhanK501's channel and watching the videos:
-Illuminati, Music Industry and Why Michael Jackson was killed (Parts 1&2)
-The Music Industry Exposed(Parts 1-present)

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Book of the week: Perks of being a wallflower, definitely a must read. If you haven't read it already, I highly recommend it. It's one that'll have you laughing and crying all at the same time.

Song of the moment: Shut it down- Pitbull ft Akon

I really need to update me iPod. We're going camping next week with school, I know it's going to be an exhausting trip but I can't wait! 2 nights, 3 days, one map, a compass and lots of checkpoints to complete. Sounds great already :p

There's also a MUN conference the week after, so I'll be having a busy couple of weeks.

Love always,

xx

Seems like it was just yesterday,

The old feeling of nostalgia washed over me as I sat there looking through old pictures, discarded letters and pieces of art that had compiled as a pile of junk in the corner of my room throughout the years. Shuffling through my things a birthday card slipped out, one given from me to my big brother, not many years ago, it read:

He teased you and tickled you and put ice cubes down your back.
He was your best friend and worst enemy, your tormentor and your protector.
He’s the one you always knew would be there anytime you needed him.
He’s your brother and you love him like crazy.
What else is there to say?
For my brother
From your sister

At times like this, I realise just how lucky I am to have brothers even if I wish I didn't majority of the time. I know you just left a couple of days ago but I miss you already and I can't wait till you're back home again :)

2010 already? I wouldn't be able to believe if this year went by just as quick as the last couple. I wouldn't call myself a very busy person but for some reason I can't seem to find any time to do anything. So here's to a new year filled with possibilities, to accomplish your goals, to set out on new adventures and to spend time only on those who are worth it. I for one am not spending 2010 chasing people who were never meant to be mine to begin with.

Cheers! x

• “In the depths of winter, I discovered within me, an invincible summer.”

Current mood:-Exhausted, my mom thinks I need to lose weight and so she pretty much threatened me into joining a gym. I'm pretty sure my instructor is out to kill me, which doesn't make me anymore enthusiastic to go to the gym.

Listening to: Beyonce-Broken Hearted Girl

Current quote:“Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway. You’ll be damned if you do, and damned if you don’t.” –Eleanor Roosevelt.

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I hate the fact that I can't start off something and get to the end of it, it's been months and my memory board is still not completed. I've been putting off so many books and I'm struggling to get through GoodFellas though it is such an amazing read, I'm getting into this world of Henry Hill and gangsters and the fact that we're learning about Bootlegging and Gangsters in school too helps.

I planned on entering a writing competition, and it was only after I started it that I realized what utter crap the story I posted on blogger was. Of course, me being me still hasn't finished the story and the deadline is tomorrow and I have homework to do so I won't be getting it done. I don't mind, there will be other contests.

I need help though, I'm throwing a masquerade party this week and I can't seem to find any stores with decent masks. Any suggestions? I don't like ordering online so that won't really help, I need stores in Dubai and a place where I can buy invites.

Anyways, here's Edward Maya's new single. It's shot in Dubai and Beirut, definitely something different and I love the idea of it being shot here, it seems different and he's successfully pulled it off which is more than I can say about Karl Wolf's attempt.

Until next time,

xoxo

P.s: Gossip girl is finally speeding up, I can't say I'm loving where things are headed though but I needed a break from all their confusion and this was exactly it. 90210 has taken a turn too, I can't wait for the next show. As for Heroes and the other tv shows, I still need to catch up :(

I'm back :D

“Tell me one last thing,” said Harry. “Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?”

“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?

My apologies, I never meant to disappear for so long. It just happened, I've had way too many things to deal with as of late and I just can't seem to cope. Everytime I'd feel like blogging about something, something else would happen and I just never seemed to have the time.

I'm back though, and I'm here to stay. I'm working on short stories so those will be up pretty soon too.

I know this is late but what did you guys dress up for Halloween? Apart from watching the Woman in Black, which I must say disappointed me greatly, this Halloween was an uneventful one for me :(

Updates on what I've been doing:

-I've taken up Model United Nations this year which although requires so much work, I think it's worth it. I'm not sure if it's all that helpful for university but it's a great deal of fun and I've always been an argumentative girl by nature so it works just fine for me :p

-Best Buddies is another program I became a part of, working with the kids in Dubai Center for Special Needs is amazing. For those of you who would like to help out, you can always volunteer even for a day at the center. It's wonderful :)

-Loads of school work, I need to keep my grades high this year. I'm applying for Standford Summer School, Inshallah I'll get in :) Do any of you have any better recommendations?

- I went fishing today, it took me a little while to get used to our bait but I loved it! I actually managed to catch a fish =p Not only that but I can now proudly sport a new tan, the weather is clearing up and I couldn't be any more ecstatic for winter.

-I'm currently reading Goodfellas. I have to say it's such a change from the other books I've read but I'm enjoying it greatly, I will post a review once I'm done :p

Until next time,

xoxo