The show must go on.

Mood:-Psyched! I've been feeling really happy and content with everything the past few days seeing as I'm usually a very bi-polar person things are either going to go drastically wrong during the next few days or my life has finally balanced out and I can experience feelings like a normal person :p

Listening to:- The Prodigy-Omen (Hands down one of the best electronic rock band's there are, and this song proves just that)

Current quote:-I've met so many people, often the scum of the earth, and found them, you know, quite decent. I am an uncomfortable stranger to moral indignation. ~W. Somerset Maugham
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P7-Being Aaliyah [Yuup; I've decided on a name myself since you guys are not at all helpful -.-' Except for Material Girl ofcourse, who picked out this name ;p]

It's a short post but hey something is better than nothing, right? If I get good feedback on this one I promise you a new one as soon as possible. My inspiration for this post came from the Anonymous commentors, Thank you :)

I put my wayfarers back on and slipped into my flip flops as I gazed at the beautiful scenery in front of me. The stunning, crystal blue waters sparkled in the sunlight as the fish jumped in and out of the water causing ripples to form in the sea. I moved closer and tossed a pebble into the water as far as I could get it to go and smiled lightly as I heard it plop into the sea.

I sat down and watched the sand granules fall through the spaces in my hand as I poured it from one hand to another. I took a deep breath and wondered how I ended up in such a situation.

My friend is about to kill himself and I’m sitting here talking to myself. Great.

My eyebrows furrowed together in confusion and I gazed up at the blue cloudless sky as if looking for an answer. This was the place my parent’s would always bring me to when I was little. We would spend hours lazing under the hot sun doing just about nothing and everything all at the same time. I’m sure we would still be doing those things if it wasn’t for that dreaded day that took my parents’ away from me.

I tried not to think about it but every single moment remained so clear in my mind. My mind raced back to us calmly sitting in our boat, fishing like we always did every Friday but we never expected there to be thunder. We lived in a desert where it seldom rained so checking the weather forecast was not something we were accustomed to. My parents never learned how to swim and I was neither strong nor a good enough swimmer to save them. I remember that night as I was about to drown, I felt a force push me towards the buoy and I held onto it with all my might as I watched my parents being helplessly thrown around in the sea. I tried to pull them towards me but it was of no use, they had already drowned. I was shivering from the cold and crying at the same time, I felt so lost as I kept calling my parents’ names. I was then rescued by a man who now takes care of me. He tries to become closer to me but I guess a part of me doesn’t want to let him in because I’m afraid he’ll try and take my father’s place.

I pushed these thoughts back into my head and tried to concentrate on what was happening right now. My mind always drifted off topic, I think it’s mainly because I have so many things bottled up in my mind that I never allow myself to think about. I’ve always been afraid to let emotions in, I’ve always been too afraid to feel.

Until next time,

xoxo

P.s: I figured that maybe since I wrote my thoughts before the story you guys forgot about it by the time you finished reading the story so I'll say it again; when I say leave me suggestions, I honestly mean leave me the suggestions :P I'll take criticism too! but right now I'm desperate for a name.